I can't sleep tonight..I have way too much on my mind. I feel buried under the tremendous responsibilty of being a Mom, wife, daughter, sister, friend, house keeper, cook, teacher, seamstress, doula ect.. I feel like I just can't do it. I don't know how to get everything done that I need to do in a day. I wish I had more time to sit quiet with my children and play games or just cuddle and talk and do nothing. I feel like life comes at me every day so quickly and I don't know how to slow it down. I fall into bed at night exhausted and wonder if this is how we were meant to live. I LOVE my life and wouldn't trade it for anything, but sometimes I think I am trying to spin too many plates and yet somehow I still feel like I am not doing enough and could still be doing so much more! AHHH...I feel so overwhelmed! I always feel so frustrated that I can't get everything done. Maybe it is because I have my agenda and I am trying too hard? I don't know... What can I cut out? I try to cut out house work, haha! but that just makes me crazier when it is messy! :p
When I think of life I think of the many activities and responsibilities of my days...making meals, dressing children, changing diapers, teaching school , ministering to the needs and the hearts of my children and husband, doing dishes, picking up, oops he got in the mud again..oops spilled milk..NO..Don't throw that in the toilet! What does the Bible say about being kind? Did you really get hurt again? Who cut up all the paper all over the floor? How many times have I told you not to eat popcorn on the couch? vacuming, sweeping, mopping, laundry..oh the laundry! It is such a monster that I can't keep up with no matter how hard I try!! No to mention shopping, meal planning, crafts, schooling, devotions, praying, time with friends, phone calls, classes, sorting through clothes, decorating for different seasons, packages to mail, cards to send, baths, pictures, organizing, homeschool groups, tap lessons, piano lessons,excersize, church activities, birthday parties, baking, ministry, blogging, e- mails-unfinished sewing projects, decorating projects and home projects!!!!! The list could go on and on it is so ridiculous! These are things that make life happen..the things that keep us going... the things I seriously LOVE...the daily monotony of life and the beauty of life.
Sometimes I just want to climb in a hole and be still and hear nothing but quiet. I know I am rambling..probably because I am tired like usual.
I don't know all the answers and how to organize my time and my days. I feel like I try so hard to stay on top of things, and I try to stay balanced and not be too busy, but it is so hard for me! Every day life without adding anything extra is busy! I want the peace of God to reside on our family. I don't want to be too busy where I miss out on the simple things in life...I want to take my guitar to the park and play while my kids run and have fun. I want to always have time for people and put God first. I want to sit on the couch and be still. I never want to be too busy with my plans that God can't change them..
".Please help me God to put you first. Weed out the things in my life that aren't beneficial to our family and to our lifestyle. I admit that I can't do this on my own..I need your help to be a balanced, organized person. I feel like I have so much on my plate, but at the same time I am not doing what you have given me to do very well. I don't want to do anything half heartedly. I give you my days and ask for wisdom to order my time. Use our family for your kingdom...shine in us and through us so that your name will be glorified. I love you Lord and I thank you that when I am weak then you are strong."
"When my heart is overwhelmed lead me to the rock that is higher than I"
Psalm 61:2
When I think of life I think of the many activities and responsibilities of my days...making meals, dressing children, changing diapers, teaching school , ministering to the needs and the hearts of my children and husband, doing dishes, picking up, oops he got in the mud again..oops spilled milk..NO..Don't throw that in the toilet! What does the Bible say about being kind? Did you really get hurt again? Who cut up all the paper all over the floor? How many times have I told you not to eat popcorn on the couch? vacuming, sweeping, mopping, laundry..oh the laundry! It is such a monster that I can't keep up with no matter how hard I try!! No to mention shopping, meal planning, crafts, schooling, devotions, praying, time with friends, phone calls, classes, sorting through clothes, decorating for different seasons, packages to mail, cards to send, baths, pictures, organizing, homeschool groups, tap lessons, piano lessons,excersize, church activities, birthday parties, baking, ministry, blogging, e- mails-unfinished sewing projects, decorating projects and home projects!!!!! The list could go on and on it is so ridiculous! These are things that make life happen..the things that keep us going... the things I seriously LOVE...the daily monotony of life and the beauty of life.
Sometimes I just want to climb in a hole and be still and hear nothing but quiet. I know I am rambling..probably because I am tired like usual.
I don't know all the answers and how to organize my time and my days. I feel like I try so hard to stay on top of things, and I try to stay balanced and not be too busy, but it is so hard for me! Every day life without adding anything extra is busy! I want the peace of God to reside on our family. I don't want to be too busy where I miss out on the simple things in life...I want to take my guitar to the park and play while my kids run and have fun. I want to always have time for people and put God first. I want to sit on the couch and be still. I never want to be too busy with my plans that God can't change them..
".Please help me God to put you first. Weed out the things in my life that aren't beneficial to our family and to our lifestyle. I admit that I can't do this on my own..I need your help to be a balanced, organized person. I feel like I have so much on my plate, but at the same time I am not doing what you have given me to do very well. I don't want to do anything half heartedly. I give you my days and ask for wisdom to order my time. Use our family for your kingdom...shine in us and through us so that your name will be glorified. I love you Lord and I thank you that when I am weak then you are strong."
"When my heart is overwhelmed lead me to the rock that is higher than I"
Psalm 61:2
