It is time to unwind, take a breath and... VENT!! Most days are good...even if they don't "feel" good. I try to look at the good in every day, count my blessings and see things from a positive perspective. Today was not one of those days. I don't know if it all started with Cade dumping several fist fulls of granola onto my carpet as he shoved the large bites into his mouth, the dog running through my house with muddy paws, or bumps, spills, fussy children, half done school work, the stack of dishes from the night before and piles of laundry... but today was just rough! I seriously hate complaining but can I just scream??!! I felt like the world's worst, grouchiest Mom today. (Which makes me feel even more stressed and worse.) I yelled, fussed and cried at my kids today. Nothing in particular even was horrible or went wrong..it was just ME having an off day and responding negatively to all the frustrations and messes the day had to bring.
I love my children more than anything in the whole world..they are my greatest treasures and blessings. How could I be frustrated and mad and short with these beautiful little people? I usually LOVE rocking Cade to sleep at night and reading the other ones their devotions, but tonight the little fingers pinching at my underarms made me cringe and the sucking noises Cade made as he sucked on his little fingers( that I usually adore) just made me stressed and mad tonight. I just needed everyone to be quiet and go away...
I don't know how much good typing this out will do..sometimes I think it just helps to write and get it all out. I do know that I am so thankful for God's mercy and love and for His grace that truly does cover our weaknesses. I am thankful that when I miss it with my children, that God covers those mistakes. He really does fill in the gaps where I lack and I am thankful. We are going to have bad days, weeks or even months, but I am reminded that it's not what we do or don't do that makes us a good or bad Mom..it is the love that we have for our children and the love that comes from God through us that makes us a good Mom.
It is easy to compare ourselves to others and think that somehow that if we look great, excersize regularly, eat organic healthy foods made from scratch :) have our children involved in a bunch of activities, keep our house clean, help others, plan and host great parties, have our kids dressed in the best(the list could go on forever!) that somehow that makes us "Good Moms" This is such a lie that I buy into so many times! Those are "MY" standards of what a good Mom looks like not God's!! If I fall short of the standard I have set for myself than I feel I have failed and I am a bad Mom. It is by nothing we do that makes us good...In God's eyes because of Jesus we are whole, good , beautiful and cleansed ! We have everything we need, to be who He has called us to be. He has already equipped us to be GREAT MOMS!! I want to see myself as God sees me and stop putting so much pressure on myself to meet up to MY standard of what a good Mom is. I am a good Mom because of God's mercy, strength and grace poured upon me. Ahh..ok I am feeling better...no wonder why I felt God speaking this to me at the beginning of this week...He knew I would need to be reminded.
I love my children more than anything in the whole world..they are my greatest treasures and blessings. How could I be frustrated and mad and short with these beautiful little people? I usually LOVE rocking Cade to sleep at night and reading the other ones their devotions, but tonight the little fingers pinching at my underarms made me cringe and the sucking noises Cade made as he sucked on his little fingers( that I usually adore) just made me stressed and mad tonight. I just needed everyone to be quiet and go away...
I don't know how much good typing this out will do..sometimes I think it just helps to write and get it all out. I do know that I am so thankful for God's mercy and love and for His grace that truly does cover our weaknesses. I am thankful that when I miss it with my children, that God covers those mistakes. He really does fill in the gaps where I lack and I am thankful. We are going to have bad days, weeks or even months, but I am reminded that it's not what we do or don't do that makes us a good or bad Mom..it is the love that we have for our children and the love that comes from God through us that makes us a good Mom.
It is easy to compare ourselves to others and think that somehow that if we look great, excersize regularly, eat organic healthy foods made from scratch :) have our children involved in a bunch of activities, keep our house clean, help others, plan and host great parties, have our kids dressed in the best(the list could go on forever!) that somehow that makes us "Good Moms" This is such a lie that I buy into so many times! Those are "MY" standards of what a good Mom looks like not God's!! If I fall short of the standard I have set for myself than I feel I have failed and I am a bad Mom. It is by nothing we do that makes us good...In God's eyes because of Jesus we are whole, good , beautiful and cleansed ! We have everything we need, to be who He has called us to be. He has already equipped us to be GREAT MOMS!! I want to see myself as God sees me and stop putting so much pressure on myself to meet up to MY standard of what a good Mom is. I am a good Mom because of God's mercy, strength and grace poured upon me. Ahh..ok I am feeling better...no wonder why I felt God speaking this to me at the beginning of this week...He knew I would need to be reminded.
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